the easiest way to celebrate Trinity Sunday

Today is Trinity Sunday. How best to live it out?

Love your family. 

Yes, it is this simple. And this hard.

Because if God is a community of love, a trinity of persons, a three-in-one, then the very best way we have to celebrate this central truth of Christianity is to be a community of love. Which starts at home.

We Catholics speak the name of the Trinity every time we start to pray: In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit. 

But how often do we stop to consider that with each quick sign of the cross, we are evoking the very essence of family? A parent, a child, and the love between them.


Today as you love your family – in the everyday, concrete, hands-on ways that families love, over food and through tears and in quiet – think about what they have taught you of love. How it wakes in the night, how it keeps going in the dark, how it turns our faces toward light.

Today as you love your family – parents and grandparents, children and step-children, nieces and nephews, spouses and siblings – think about what it means that the Trinity is unity in diversity. That the dazzling force of creation itself springs from three different people loving each other.

And tonight, when you slip into bed with the day’s ordinary disappointments and failings still circling round regret, let yourself be forgiven by the mystery that our God is the dynamic dance of love itself. Every time we bow our heads and bend back toward each other to try again, we are stepping back into this Trinity dance that is the love of God.

The most important difference between Christianity and all other religions (is) that in Christianity God is not a static thing—not even a person—but a dynamic, pulsating activity, a life, almost a kind of drama. Almost, if you will not think me irreverent, a kind of dance… (The) pattern of this three-personal life is . . . the great fountain of energy and beauty spurting up at the very center of reality.

–C. S. Lewis

Love your family. 

It will always be this hard and this simple. The people you are given to love are usually the same ones who lead you back to God, by their blessing or by their failing. They teach you what love is and is not and could be.

And on a Sunday that celebrates the wild mystery that is God, what better way to humble yourself back than to share gratitude and joy with the ones you’ve been blessed by the Trinity to love?

All sorts of people are fond of repeating the Christian statement that ‘God is love.’ But they seem not to notice that the words ‘God is love’ have no real meaning unless God contains at least two Persons. Love is something that one person has for another person. If God was a single person, then before the world was made, He was not love. Of course, what these people mean when they say that God is love is often something quite different: they really mean ‘Love is God.’ They really mean that our feelings of love, however and wherever they arise, and whatever results they produce, are to be treated with great respect. Perhaps they are: but that is something quite different from what Christians mean by the statement ‘God is love.’ They believe that the living, dynamic activity of love has been going on in God forever and has created everything else.

–C. S. Lewis

For more on the Trinity, check out these posts:

the trinity of family life

three for the trinity

the trinity of family life

Give and take. Sacrifice and compromise. The exchanges we make in love.

Our December has turned into a microcosm of our marriage, a portrait of our partnership. First I was gone for five days of meetings, and F had to scramble to stay home with the boys when the babysitter was sick. Now he leaves for a week-long business trip, and I’m the one scrambling to rearrange my schedule.

This month we’re both juggling child care and work responsibilities and housework and errands. We’re sharing dinner duty and diaper duty and sending a zillion emails a day between home and office to coordinate the caring, cooking, cleaning.

One feeds the baby and the other washes the bottles. One makes dinner and the other scrubs the dishes. One does the laundry and the other buys the groceries. One stays up late with the baby and the other gets up early with the toddler.

The next day – or week or month – we switch. And the cycle of sharing starts over again.

Sometimes we’re tempted to keep track or keep score. We’ve sacrificed more, we think. We’ve done too much lately, we brood. But that is the temptation away from agape, from mutuality, from self-giving love. Marriage and parenting are never 50/50, but the allure of the equal makes us constantly renegotiate what’s working, what’s not, and how we can change.

This is the dynamic we’re daily carving out for our family. This is the model of marriage we want to give to our boys. This is the way of life that makes the most sense for us – even when it doesn’t make sense. This is the Trinity of family that teaches me daily what it means to love, to give and to receive.

The nature of our God as Trinity is no dry doctrine. Sometimes it seem mysterious or esoteric, but sometimes it is as close as the people in our own home: those with whom we share a table or a bed.

The Trinity is a dance of love among a family. It is the gifts we give and receive as we help each other become the people we were created to be. It can be messy and demanding but also beautiful and divine.

And in the midst of this busy week in a busy month, I’m humbled and delighted to share the glimpse of God that our family life gives to me. Check it out at Picturing God: Faces and Traces of the Divine.


Three for the Trinity

One of the wonderful women I was blessed to know in graduate school saw the world through a Trinitarian lens. Every triad she came across was joyfully proclaimed to be “three for the Trinity”! I learned much about the Trinity during my grad school years, thanks to Karl Rahner and Miguel Diaz (just had to mention those in the same breath, my friends) and many other systematic theologians in between. I came to understand the Trinity not as a three-leaf clover or a pipeline of holiness transferred from one Divine Person to the next (yes, I admit to holding to both of these images at various points during my religious upbringing). Instead, I came to understand the Trinity as a community of persons, a dynamic exchange of love that we are called to emulate in our own relationships, families, and churches.

But this was still a theoretical understanding of the Trinity, albeit nuanced and comfortably backed up by many theologians much wiser than I.

So it surprised me greatly that motherhood would begin to teach me what the Trinity really meant.

I remember one night in particular, during the blurry weeks of S’s early life. He was still sleeping next to our bed in his snug bassinet, angelic with his tiny features and the barely discernible rise and fall of his baby chest (which terrified me at least once a night when I was convinced he wasn’t breathing. Soon after he begin snoring like a lumberjack; be careful what you pray for). I was thoroughly exhausted, having woken to nurse him at 11, and 1, and 2:30, and 4, or some awful combination thereof. A growth spurt or a restless night or simply a hungry boy – I really didn’t care. All I longed for was a three – or even four! – hour stretch of sacred sleep so I could stop the pounding in my head and feel like a Real Human Being again.

But S had roused once more, hungry and crying. I sighed, pushed my tired body up, and pulled him out of his bassinet into the warmth of our bed. He nursed eagerly for five minutes, then immediately fell asleep with the satisfied “drunk on milk” smile that F and I loved to joke about. But not at 4:30 in the morning. I wanted him to rouse and eat so I could sleep, but darn it all, babies can sense your best-laid plans and delight in letting them go astray. A freight train could have barreled through our bedroom and that child would not have stirred. I sighed again, so tired and frustrated at the knowledge that he would be up again soon and hungry yet again. But in the warm glow of the nightlight next to our bed, I gazed at this beautiful little creature in my arms and I realized what a gift this was. Not only his sheer presence in our lives, in our family, which had sometimes seemed a distant dream at best. But the fact that I was able, by the gift of myself, to sustain his very life.

Nursing hadn’t been easy. S arrived three weeks early and complications landed him in the higher level nursery instead of sleeping next to me as we had planned. He was hooked up to all sorts of monitors and IVs, and I had to learn to nurse under the hawkish eyes of nurses who insisted that the baby needed a bottle of formula. We held our ground until we realized that they wouldn’t discharge him until he proved that he could eat (and my milk had yet to come in). So I sobbed irrationally, but then watched F delight in being able to feed S himself. Parenting Lesson #1: throw out your plans and theories and expectations. Then three weeks after we brought him home and finally learned how to nurse well, two rounds of thrush (and one more to come) brought every possible medication and homeopathic treatment under the sun to ease the blistering pain. In the end it was only patience and my stubborn determination to wait it out that conquered evil thrush once and for all.

So it hadn’t been a walk in the park, but it had still been incredibly worthwhile. Parenting lesson #2: just because something is a challenge doesn’t mean it’s not worth doing, I told myself every day. And to watch S grow and awaken and plump up before my eyes was my proudest work to date.

So at that blurry night (or was it morning?) hour, I bathed in the glow of the nightlight and soaked up that sleeping baby in my arms, knowing full well (in that theoretical way) that these days would pass and I would miss them. I gently laid S back in his bassinet and snuggled back into my own warm bed, pulling the covers over my shoulders. Then F roused a bit, rolled over, and snuck his arm around my waist, snuggling into the curve of my back.

That was when it hit me. This is exactly what it means to exist within the life of God. This was Trinity. The giving, the receiving; the pouring out of self and the filling up when empty. This was the community of love, the dynamic diversity that mysteriously made up the very Self of God. And for a brilliant second, I understood and basked in it and let it take my breath away. We gave and we took and we grew in love because of it. Three for the Trinity, I heard echoing in my head. It was so real – the Really Real – that every theory or theology I had about the Trinity paled in comparison. So much straw, Aquinas said. Systematic theology, attachment parenting – the theories work out beautifully on paper, but the reality forces us to deal in shades of grey, ambiguities we never expected to encounter. And yet, the richness of the discovery – the really real deepening of love – made the disillusionment of the loss of certainty all the more powerful.

Trinity, I breathed. I smiled. Thanks to the Incarnation, we can dare to exist, for moments, within the life of God.